The scissors won't cut

Relationships... that word.. it can mean so many things
Relationships... the very word means connections between people, and in that sense can relationships ever end, theoretically the memories and bonds always hold those involved together in some way.

Yes True

But
They hold onto the past, that is all past relationships can do
It aggrivates me when people try to bring those relationships through to the present, emotional bagagge is baggage that should be in the lost and never found box.
Those relationships, those ties, they have a purpose
But that is to facilitate the memories of the past

Sometimes even after a breakup people dont know how to cut the ties, or know how but dont.
Why
When some work so hard to cut theirs, can the other not have the common curtisy to do the same.
when others hold onto the strings they are never free
and all i wish is that they were
But thats a fight i cant help them with, and its better that i dont.

The past is beautiful, but its the past
Try get past it people

Purpose

It is a strangely familiar feeling, peace of mind.
although one i haven't known much, i could recognise it completely when i received it.
Yesterday, was the beginning of a journey for me, a journey which i have no idea where it will lead me.
God, my king showed me i must go to Africa next year and before i go, i must learn Te Reo and Kapa Haka.

We had a guest speaker, a missionary named Suzi, who is a photographer, and God spoke through her about using your gifts for him.
In my mind i just had this image, me leading the haka in an African villi age, me learning the taiaha, defending women, not for glory or anything like that but because it has to happen.
The photos Suzi showed, there was such raw emotion in them. Fear, Anger, Sorrow.
i thought to myself... that's not how women should... ever look... its not sad, or bad... its just wrong, its the opposite of how it should be.
How do people ever get the idea to make others feel like that.

I have been thinking for a while about what it means to be a MAN of God, an actual MAN, and how we have to stand up for women.
This is Gods commandment for me... I cant wait

Warrior

Sometimes, Men... Need to fight.
Sometimes to grit and bear it, means to take the punches, like a man.

That statement, how much does it mean anymore
Be a man
What does that mean anymore.
Be a man

Sometimes, blood needs to hit the ground.
Its not hurting someone else, thats not why we fight
Its because there are lines that if you cross that is the reply you get.

People say its barbaric, unessecary and its not the answer
Sometimes... its the only answer.

Let men handle the business of men

Its Ok

Sometimes the walls crumble, and the cold wind whipps across our tender heart.
Sometimes the fight against the tears is lost... and water falls to the floor
Sometimes the light dies... and darkness begins to hold us...

But its ok...
Because... Because its ok.
Because a heart is there to feel
Because the tears are there to feel
Because without the dark how will we ever see how beautiful the light is.

Sometimes the walls crumble
Sometimes the tears fall
Sometimes the light dies
Sometimes
But every other time...

Your walls are strong, and the foundations are solid, you soldier through the pain
Your tears do not fall, but the rivers of living water from your heart pour on to those who are parched
Sometimes the light dies
So you can shine