I was younger once
The world was bigger... or there was more in it.
Now I feel... perhaps i know more than i should
The younger we are... the older we have to grow
When I was younger (maybe not in age but in mind)
I used to love a girl
I used to love the idea of a girl
I saw this pedestal... and on top was the most beautiful, wholesome, sexy, wonderful, amazing, stunning woman.
I reached.
I think i reached it
But maybe i missed... and as I miss
I.. maybe i chipped away a bit of the pedestal
Maybe... grabbing at it... I might have scraped off too much
I dont know.
But after a few goes... the pedestal dosen't look the same.
It's kinda.... its shorter now...
I can reach it without even using my tip toes...
Suddenly... its not the same
i mean... its so easy now
and its so dirty.... grubby finger marks.... maybe
maybe
i should have...
....
waited ?
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
This Time
What has 2008 been about
Was there a brilliant fulfilled purpose
What was accomplished
Men, like to work to goals, the way our mind operates is we like to be able to measure things, to judge the distance we have come, to see the path that we have defeated
and thus the more you defeat, the better the reward.
So For me looking back, i try to see the goals i have reached
but with my memory being what it is, when i require to remember the moments that matter
i scarcely can, i often start these blogs with fire and end with ash.
This year has been one of Challenge, Struggle, Pain, Despair, Love, Failure, Success,
and Reward, Wonderful Wonderful Reward.
This year was one of Change, and in that i have learnt to rely upon my Lord, and seek him first in all situations a craft i haven't perfected but a battle i fight daily.
I have learnt the blows that really cut, and the ones that are superficial scrapes
and as such am now able to assess a situation and see which category it fits into
which then helps me to deal with them.
I have learnt self pitty accomplishes nothing, when each day should glorify our LORD GOD, why sit and despair when it does nothing to Glorify God
I have learnt the hearts of others are ancient things, and take as much time to heal as to open.
I have learnt my Lord is so much more than i can Grasp, he is a fearsome lord, who i wish to serve.
i lost alot, and have gained more than i can hold.
My personal relationship with God has developed into something more... mature, learning to constantly reference him, in all things praise him
and making that a reality
to follow him in the hard times.
I think like all things this year had a purpose, but the God i serve dosent work to my calendar, and i have seen purposes fulfilled this year, but i believe my God has more in store for me, than yearly success, for his is a power stretching beyond time.
Was there a brilliant fulfilled purpose
What was accomplished
Men, like to work to goals, the way our mind operates is we like to be able to measure things, to judge the distance we have come, to see the path that we have defeated
and thus the more you defeat, the better the reward.
So For me looking back, i try to see the goals i have reached
but with my memory being what it is, when i require to remember the moments that matter
i scarcely can, i often start these blogs with fire and end with ash.
This year has been one of Challenge, Struggle, Pain, Despair, Love, Failure, Success,
and Reward, Wonderful Wonderful Reward.
This year was one of Change, and in that i have learnt to rely upon my Lord, and seek him first in all situations a craft i haven't perfected but a battle i fight daily.
I have learnt the blows that really cut, and the ones that are superficial scrapes
and as such am now able to assess a situation and see which category it fits into
which then helps me to deal with them.
I have learnt self pitty accomplishes nothing, when each day should glorify our LORD GOD, why sit and despair when it does nothing to Glorify God
I have learnt the hearts of others are ancient things, and take as much time to heal as to open.
I have learnt my Lord is so much more than i can Grasp, he is a fearsome lord, who i wish to serve.
i lost alot, and have gained more than i can hold.
My personal relationship with God has developed into something more... mature, learning to constantly reference him, in all things praise him
and making that a reality
to follow him in the hard times.
I think like all things this year had a purpose, but the God i serve dosent work to my calendar, and i have seen purposes fulfilled this year, but i believe my God has more in store for me, than yearly success, for his is a power stretching beyond time.
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