Finished

I thought I used to know
About the script behind the show
But the magazines lie
They pull angels from the sky
When beauty is made on a computer screen
Instead of what’s in front of me
And you ask me why
Why the stars refuse to shine
When we idolise what’s pleasing to the eyes
We take our gaze away
We wander far astray
And were lost in the wilderness
Clinging to any kind
Any kind of love we find
And you ask me why
The stars refuse to shine
Locked behind prison bars
Built by fallen stars
Shading your starlight
And social expectations
Increasing complications
On this heavenly earth
We stare away from the hurt
And you ask me why
The stars refuse to shine
And ill tell you why
Its because of you and I

My Family

Ive been away, since the Thursday just gone.
Went up north with the family... my brother is home from England with his girl.
My Brother Scott came up from Wellington with his girlfriend.
My sister Tessa and her family came Damian, Oliver (9) Lachlan (5) and Charlotte (3)
My Brother Nick came too.
My Mum Linda
My Dad Steven

I have a big family... i was an uncle at 8 years old.
I have been to countless family gatherings, tangi, funerals, weddings, parties, Christmas's you name it Ive done it.
But..... only today... only now

Do i understand how blessed i am by them.
Blessed by my family
I realised how much i love them today
My Dad fought his way out of a home... an abusive home which would have had him on the same destructive path as so many of my culture are.
He promised himself he would never be like his father... never, ever
He promised my mother he would never be like his father.

My father left home at 15, was married by 18 and still is
My father... deserves nothing but the utmost respect
My father is strong, quiet, brilliant, loving and wonderful
My father is who i want to become, he may not have a university qualifications
My father is the smartest man I will ever meet.

My Mother is the strongest woman i know
My mother loves to garden
My mother cared so much about her kids that before they were born she decided, they wouldn't be raised as she was.
My mother did what by rights all of us kids should have been doing.
She cleaned everyone elses mess before she had the chance to make her own
My mother was married at 18 and still is

My sister is the oldest of 5 children
My sister helped raised me and still does
My sister will never ever stop defending me
My sister loves all her family
All her family

My Brothers
Are
My Brothers

They aren't perfect
They are Strong
They aren't always fun
They always care
They will never, ever let anything happen to those we care about
Ever

I

I am blessed to be a part of this family
I am so blessed to have their love
I am not the son i want to be for them
I am not the brother i want to be for them
I am not the uncle i want to be for them
I am not who i want to Be

But i will be
For my Brothers
My Sister
My Nephews
My Niece

My Mother

My Father

I promise myself, like my father did, like my mother did

I will be better

Work In Progress

I thought I used to know

About the script behind the show

But the magazines lie

They pull angels down to die

When beauty is made on a computer screen

Instead of what’s in front of me

And you ask me why

Why the stars refuse to shine

We glorify decadence in place of divinity