Explosion

Sometimes, i get this feeling in, kind of in my spine, at the base of my spine
where i just want to explode... where a chain reaction rips my body apart.
its so intense and lasts not even a second.
it somehow seems to go up my spine so fast and lodge in my brain.
and its so painful, but its not there long enough for me to feel the pain.

and its when i think of GOD
He is just so enormous, i cant describe it and I'm afraid ATM that if i start to try, then i will get that feeling.
its like there is a funnel and GOD is pouring his entirety into my head, and i cant hold it.
there is to much to say, and not enough time.
even thsi feeble blog does him no good.
i look across the mangroves, and i think, the wat4er ripples precisley in time with the wind which moves the trees as i smell the wind.
what kind of GOD even thinks of physical matter... i cant explain him, but i thirst and hunger and NEED GOD, so much and i wish others were so addicted.

I just need him
HE is SO enormous, that there is nothing else

I wanted this blog to be amazing, its not, and it couldnt have been, hes to big
to fit on this screen.

How can two people in the same room, be so far apart and so close for they are the children of christ