Ahhh wasted time

You know what i think is really stupid, when you know you shouldnt be thinking something, or doing something but you cant help but do it.
i dont mean like drinking or smoking or whatever but emotions, you know like... anger, jealousy all those ones mate.
Pointless yet you cant control how you feel.
Mind you...
If you could control it... it wouldnt be 'feeling' would it...
it would become thinking

Still, maybe that could be good. elective emotions but then how long before all emotions that ever turned negative would be erased huh huh huh ? who knows

My point is, i really dont like hating someone and being unable to like them... not for lack of wanting.
I wish i could ignore my gut reaction swallow my pride but i cant atm.

ahh thats what emo songs are for i spose